HURTING TO FORGET

i am making a mistake.

a huge one.

i knew it.

but still,

i'm doing it.

i know its wrong.

but i cant stop.

this is the way i chose.

this is the decision i made.

i know it gonna be wrong.

i know it gonna effect my whole life.

i know it gonna be held for the rest of my life.

i should learn from my mistake.

and i'm taking this as an opportunity to learn,

and also as a lesson.

mak, i'm sorry.

abg, i'm sorry.

let me get through this all by myself.

hopefully strong enough to face it.

let me make mistakes and learn the lesson.

its a pathway of life.

for me to learn,

for me to get hurt,

for me to get up.

this gonna be the biggest mistake ever.

this is one way for me to get up,

to stand up,

to stand strong,

to let go,

to forget,

all about my past.

i'm making this mistake to forget the old one.

hurting myself to let go off the previous one.

sounds silly,

but this is a trial.

trial to forget the past,

by choosing the way of hurting myself.

thanks for all the way u made me see.

but i need my own.

naah